Very Interesting...

I think this is very interesting since I have been telling my friends that I am going to marry a Jewish man all of my life!  Well Summer is here and basically all I have been doing is bullshit jobsfor my mom it sucks!  I am missing going to starbucks everyday since it is a good 30 miles away.  Leave forcamp in two weeks not even nearly ready!  Goingto visit all my OP lovers next weekend, fun!!!!!  Call me! 

Heddy

Goodbye!

As school is ending, it is time for us all to leave alot of our friends and go home.  Not only this some kids will be ending hs and moving on to college.  Believe me, I was freaked out when I left for college but it has turned out to be the best expeirence of my life.  I have done tons of fun things, studied my ass of, stayed up all night many times, and just sat around talked to my friends and procrastinated the homework assignement I had due the next day.  But, that is what college is about I have learned, sometimes you mess up, its ok, your true friends will ALWAYS be there.  Sometimes you will be upset, others your life will seem perfect.  Just remember that we will all be back to school in a few short months and believe me I already cant wait.  To all my friends graduating, have fun these next days beause, it wont ever be back to what it was and trust me you will totally change over the next year, you will do thigs you never thought you would and hopefully you dont regret anything!  SO to help inspire everyone, I want you guys to read one of my favorite quotes which has been in many movies lately.  This qoute really helps me to strive to be a better person everyday!

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.  Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.  It is our light not our darkness that most frighten us.  We ask ourselves, "Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous?" Actually, who are you not to be? Your playing small doesn't serve the world.  There is nothing enlightened about shrinking, so that others won't feel insecure around you.  We are born to manifest the glory that is within us.  It is in everyone. As we let our own light shine, we are unconsciously giving others permission to do the same.  As we are liberated by our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."
~Nelson Mandela

Dint sleep well last......Too much on the mind.

Call me to rescue me from this relentless hell!!!  Sorry to be such a downer but thats how I feel.  Going to the library today, dont know why, just want to!

Heddy

I cant even believe myself....

So it has been a while since I updated but I have been having a good time.  I went home last weekend and amanda came with me.  It was alot of fun...I met sarah's new boyfriend and he is great and then we partyed in his dorm with all of his friends and what not.  Erika was so drunk, she kept throwing up and I was out of control I met al of these new people and it was fun.  Eirka the worst of all drove us to my house and we chilled so erika could sober up a bit.  Then the next day we came back up to KU.  I have been having a lot of fun this week also.  I went out with some new friends last night.  And that was fun.  But I just realized that the saturday that I was home it had been 12 years since my dad died.  No, I usually dont talk about that on here I am just so pissed that I totally forgot and got drunk.  That is not who I am.  I didnt even say anything to my mom about it she must have felt so bad.  I know that it has been 12 years and that I should b ok about it but its still hard everyday.  and I wish it would all be better but it cant.  Well I have to run I just woke up and its 4 o clock and I have rehersal at 6.  I also have a massive headache.  But., this is one last note to my friends who I called and didnt answer and I know your reading this thanks for not answering it really shows me how much you care.  I really did need you guys but I guess it shows me that you cant be friends with 2 people that date....it doesnt work! 

Heddy

MISSS YOU ALL!!!!

Oh today and the past few days have been really great!  I have been having a lot of fun and everything seems to be going really well.  All of my friends that I lost last semester are now back. I am so glad I get to to spend a lot more time with them even if we are just studying.  I mean I have recently got all of the unhealthy friends out of my life.  It really took alot but I mean I have found out through everyone that it is just better. So let me tell you what happened today...Me and linds were talking and we were like we should go to chicago and visit amanda over spring break and I was like that would be fun ive never been to chicago.  I know you are thinking that is not a place to go for spring break but I call my mom and she was like yeah of course you can go so me and linds went online and bought our tickets to leave for chicago on the 19 of march and stay for 6 days.  I am soo excited.  But then we all were in my room talking then we went to danis room and talked and that was fun until bitch ass was like beating us up.  Then linds started talking about her sex life then me and amanda decided to leave.  Today I gave my speech in class and i am really glad that is over.  Then me linds and amanda went to the math help room and I just loved it.  There were tons of cute and funny/ nerdy guys there!  There were tons of future husband possibiblities.  Then when amanda and I went and did the skills test linds was like hitting on this NASTY guy and after word she was talking to amanda and I and said she should have told him to come back to her room she could be on him like a numerator is on a denomenator!  It was hilarious.  But that is about it for now but I will write some more later.  Wish me luck on my math test tomorrow! So excited to go home this weekend.  Amanda is coming and she can see the big ole town of eldorado!  Good for her!

Heddy   

Sorry this whole post is really jumpy I am tired so I was having some major ADD issues!